Today has been filled with travel, and preparation for tomorrow....The day we've been waiting for since February...the day we finally get to begin to show Matt how very much love we have for him. The day I've dreamt about countless nights. And wept for countless days.
After our trip to wal mart to get formula, rice cereal, toddler snacks, juice, wipes, and diapers, we came back to the hotel and tried to organize everything so that tomorrow we can get up, have breakfast and go get our son! I sat in the floor surrounded by the toys, books, snacks, and sippy cups, and I just began to shake. It finally, after all this time, really and truly hit me. Greg was in the adjoining room helping the boys with something, and when he came back in he said I was white as a ghost. We just sat in the floor and prayed, and he just talked to me and calmed me down. Together we decided what toys to take, what to place into the backpack for our son. To say emotions are running high, would definitely be an understatement!
I just don't have much more in me tonight....I'm going to take a shower, and get in bed, so that I can be as rested as possible for tomorrow, and the crazy few days to follow. Please pray for us as a family, that we will be understanding of Matt's needs, and able to comfort his grieving. Pray for the nannies who have cared for him, his friends who will miss him, and especially pray for our precious baby Matt. Pray that he will quickly bond with us,a md allow us to comfort and love him. Pray for his health, that he will be healthy, and remain healthy for the rest of our time in China. And pray for his precious heart....his life will change so completely tomorrow, and he will grieve the loss of all that he has ever know.
Thank you for your prayers, and for following our journey....next stop...Gotcha Day!
"The LORD is my portion," says my soul, "therefore I will hope in him." Lam 3:24 ESV
Praying for you!!
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